so there's this girl <3
at school.
oh yeah i'm in school now! haha some of you might be happy for it.
but okay she's this BEAUTIFUL redhead.
but GOSH D: she's gorgeous
and she is always smiling at me.
and i have this terrible weakness towards redheads.. pshhh
so i really liked her, and told my sister.
she said she probably just liked my hair or my style or something.
and i thought it was perfectly reasonable.
but every time our eyes met she was looking at me! and smiling at me in the cutest sweetest way!
and on thursday i got to my modern occident history class
and she's sitting on the next classroom, and i had a perfect look of her profile, because she was in front of me.
so i spent all class doodling her on my notebook hahaha what a dumbass : B
and when the class ended, a friend of mine stole my drawing and went to give it to her, like a third grader!
saying like 'you have a fan' or something stupid like that.
so i did the maturest thing i could do: ran out of there as fast as i could. hahahahaha
okay it was really dumb but i get really really shy about girls! so i panicked and ran.
so, i got out and smoked a cigarette, and her class ended. she got out and i was so embarrassed,
i hid behind my sister and looked the other way.
but she came closer and when i couldn't look any other way, i said 'hello' and smiled
she said 'hi, my name is fer. you were the one that made the drawing, weren't you?'
i turned bright red hahaha and hated my friend and said 'yes'
she said it was really pretty and i thanked her. we had a bit of small talk and she had to go.
i was SO HAPPY she'd talked to me! hahahahahahahaha i get all stupid when i like a girl

anyway, on friday i don't go to school. but i saw a friend and went to another school to see his girlfriend.
so we ended up at my house, which is very close to that school, with some other friends of mine and a couple of friends of them i'd just met.
i was telling one of my friends about fer and it turned out one of her friends there knew her.
and i was like 'fuck, such a small world.' :0
and she said 'in fact, she's coming to the party tonight'
hahaha i was very excited about it and got all dolled up hahahaha
i got there about 1 hour before she did, but we had stayed outside in hope of a lower party fee haha
so i saw her arriving
we said hello : D but i had to go into the party, so i did.
i didn't see her in a while. and when i did, i didn't want to go and talk to her hahaha because i was so shy!
but anyway after a while some friends literally pushed me near and i approached her.
we weren't reallly talking about much
and suddenly i was with some boy i had just met at my left, and she was at my right.
and an idiot who i hated popped in all random and drunk as fuck and was like 'you should kiss each other'
meaning the guy and me, and i was like :/ pff fuck off.
but suddenly i turned slightly to the right, away from mr newlymet boy
and SHE SMOOCHED ME.
i literally backed off a little after she did, because i was in shock hahahahahahaha
i couldn't believe it!
and i hid my face all nervously and giggling like a moron i said 'you're really cute'
but shortly after, a friend tapped me on the shoulder and told me my sister was outside
so i had to go get her.
when i got out she wanted to leave with a friend who just had his birthday this week who i love
but i was like NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO D: WHYYYYYY?!?!?!
but i had to go, such is friendship.
so i told them i'd just go in and say goodbye, and they waited.
a friend came in with me to look for her, and when we found her she was all like 'oh no ): why do you have to go?'
and i was like 'bah :/ my sister wants to leave, and she's waiting outside'
and all of a sudden, out of nowhere, she KISSED MEEEEEEE
but now she wasn't just smooching me, we were having a very sweet and long kiss
some boys around us started cheering and being assholes, but we weren't even paying attention to them.
her friends talked to her to return her cellphone to her and she just turned away for a second, grabbed it and kissed me again

i walked out of there on a cloud, i swear.

Friday I'm in love.